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Akon 27 Dallas
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Hi everyone!! It looks like I log in at a rate of every 3 or 5 years to update! I will write a better post updating my life hopefully soon. I haven't checked messages in forever so if you haven't heard from me, I promise I am not ignoring you. I just dropped in to say I will be at Akon here in Dallas, Texas so if you are there and you see me say hi! I will not have a table or anything, just roaming and exploring! 
I miss everyone!!!
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Life for the past 6 Years (Long Journal :/)
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Hi everyone! So...I haven't said too much or been very active for the past 6 years or so...I was active for my first full year on DA but then life kinda happened and I wasn't on very much. So I thought I would say everything that has happened and what is currently going on in my life because I would love feedback and opinions. Needless to say, I have missed you guys, I have missed you all a lot. *gets teary-eyed*
The last time I was very active on here I was studying Computer Science at Texas Women's University. I started studying weightloss as I was very unhappy with my life and I had been obese most of my life. I was severely OCD as well...if I didn't have classes I would never have left my home. I was scared of germs and contamination. My mom had to start accompanying me to places to open doors because I was too afraid to touch door knobs (yeah it was THAT bad :/). But as I began losing weight I started having more people approach and talk to me...then I decided to change schools and go to UNT which seemed like a cooler school at the time (which was kind of a mistake since TWU was more prestigious). I left behind a scholarship too, at TWU I had a full paid scholarship and a 3.8 GPA and I was treasurer of the Engineering group and the Dean of the Engineering program was a friend of mine and he made all that happen. But I hated my life there and once I started studying engineering at UNT I still wasn't that happy. I was one of the only girls in my classes and I didn't feel like I could make friend, well I had never really had a friend yet ever...but I was working on it lol
So I transferred to the business department. I had to teach myself how to socialize...I started writing in my journal and made a new step everyday to try and talk to someone. Drawing was easy compared to socialization for me. So I gradually came out of my bubble and business school pushed me and I began giving presentations...my professor still contacts me on FB to talk to his classes. As I learned to socialize, that is about the same time I had to quit drawing and being on DA 
I was behind on school once I switched majors... so I was taking around 13 to 15 hours of class and working 20-30 hours a week to help pay for everything since I no longer had a scholarship. But on the bright side...my OCD almost completely vanished when I started working my heart out. And I started to become very happy
I met a boy at my job and started dating him when I was 22, his friends became my best friends. But as the relationship went on he grew more and more unhappy with his life. He would get mad at me for little things like putting several sugars in my coffee at Starbucks because he didn't want to wait on me. Then I graduated in 2010 at the age of 24 I didn't make too good grades like I did before, I didn't study too much but I was so sick of school I was just ready to be out. My boyfriend at the time made me cry the day I graduated, he told me I embarrass him...He kept saying that on that day. A few weeks before I graduated, I created a business plan and presented it to my dad. My dad is a very successful business man and he owns a lot of commercial properties. He said yes. So 2 days after I graduated, I started getting hard at work repairing and working on the studio. I had been living with my boyfriend for a year, he was very bad with finances and was in a lot of debt because he stole some stuff from the place we worked, went to jail, I bailed him out and then he was in a lot of debt from paying for a lawyer and school debt. My boyfriend ended up borrowing a lot of money from me...and it wasn't until later that I found out he spent a lot of it on gambling and alcohol. I ended up getting most of it back a year later though. My dad ended up spending about $15k to $20 to fix the building...and the city approved me and I opened up shop! Right at this time, I started talking to my family and friends about how my boyfriend was treating me, he would start going through rage fits every night and made me cry everyday. I never once yelled at him, I just kept saying I am sorry but I didn't know what I was doing wrong. He was starting to say stuff like "you are unattractive to me"...my family started to tell me I might be in an abusive relationship and I couldn't see it at the time but...I see it now. He made me move most of my belongings to our closet where I spent a lot of my time. And he threw out most of my furniture. If I could go back in time, I would have said shove it. The first month I was officially open for business I made $7.5k and it was all from social media...the next few months I didn't spend anytime marketing, I was working hard doing a lot of customer service and working with clients. By the 3rd or 4th month open my dad was getting people asking to rent the property since I fixed it up it was beginning to appeal to other businesses. My dad made me show the place to others and I told my dad that he said I could use it but because I didn't run my business the way he wanted me too he kept threatening to take it away. I had put in about $12k of my own savings and my dad let me borrow an additional $15-20k at the start for equipment. My dad owned his business next door and kept coming over about 6 times a day telling me how badly I was running my business. A few months of his all his negative remarks and I began falling into a depression. I started taking out my stress in the gym, roughly 2 hours a day, EVERYDAY. I ended up injuring myself and malnutrition myself, a lot of my earnings were going to medical stuff. I have an inflamed rib cage which will never go away, if feels like a knife is in my side but I don't feel it too much these days. I started turning down clients about 6 months open...I didn't want to book anyone if my dad was going to rent out the studio...my depression was getting very very bad at this point. I was hoping a car would hit me when I came home everyday. I started getting more calls and just let them go to VM. I then up and left my dad and the studio after 11 months or so...I applied to some jobs and told the interviewer what I did with my business and got hired in the first 10 minutes...the employer just said WOW! You were doing so well! At this point I was like, well? I thought I was doing awful, the things my dad told me kept replaying in my mind. I didn't take the jobs I started applying for...I was too depressed to keep one. Then I met a boy...I met him 8 months after my last relationship. I had a lot of friends warn me about him (13 friends and family members -_-), but I couldn't see what they were talking about. He seemed so nice to me. So I began a new relationship with him...2 months in he started to complain about how far away I lived...30 min. and I felt pressured to get an apartment near him. I really wanted to save money and was living with my mom at the time...and I shouldn't have but I went and got an apartment next to him. He had 2 kids that he didn't pay child support for, he said it was the girls fault for getting pregnant so he refused to take part in his kids lives. He was unemployed and living with his mom...I ended up paying all his bills for about 6 months and rinse and repeat my last relationship...except this guy gave me bruises and had bad rage fits that gave me some physical pain and it made me question if this was another abusive relationship. I was with him 13 months and when I found out he was cheating on me too broke up with him. That was this past October. I closed my business for good. Although my dad is still telling me I am a failure, I got calls from Toyota wanting me to do all their corporate head shots, a large medical center wanting me to be their corporate photographer, and a bank chain wanting me to do their corporate shots in the state of Texas. Soooooo it's been 5 months since I have been away and I am back living with my mom. But I have paid off all my studio bills and I am free of all the contracts and mess that I was in. And I am happy again Oh, and 2 years ago I was on Bourbon street in New Orleans and a shooting broke out but I got to shelter fast and was not shot...I was maybe 10 feet from the gunman O_O And this past February I was on a cruise ship called the Triumph that caught fire and we lost power and we were drifting lost in the ocean for 5 days...it was on the news a lot. Lol the exciting life I live.
So, what now? Well, after going through all that...life looks a lot easier. But I am wanting to restart my business as a photographer but I am wanting to do very artistic stuff. I felt like I was just "shooting" with my studio. Never inspired. But my goal was never money, it was to be a better artist. And now that I am free from all the obligations of my past I was thinking about writing a how to draw anime book part time while doing my photography to support myself...what do yall think? I still feel a lot of pressure from my dad, my sister just became an Operating room nurse, my 22 year old brother is an engineer for Samsung and my other brother is about to start medical school. So right now I am the failure of the family. I love art and I love social media marketing and I was thinking about creating lots of How to videos too. I don't know where I will be going...but I have really missed being an artist. I am so inspired again...I feel like I have a whole new outlook on art and I haven't begun creating good work. I have felt like I have had a lot of pressure on me and now its gone...and I can't get inspired with pressure. Sorry this is so long...I have really needed to get this out. Some of you have been following me on my facebook for the past 5-6 years and anytime I was depressed I would get messages that would lift me up. I love you guys <3 so much! Yall have been a huge part of my life and I can't thank you enough for all the comments and messages I get. <3 Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, thank you.
My new FB page!
www.facebook.com/CrysaTV
Personal FB:
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The last time I was very active on here I was studying Computer Science at Texas Women's University. I started studying weightloss as I was very unhappy with my life and I had been obese most of my life. I was severely OCD as well...if I didn't have classes I would never have left my home. I was scared of germs and contamination. My mom had to start accompanying me to places to open doors because I was too afraid to touch door knobs (yeah it was THAT bad :/). But as I began losing weight I started having more people approach and talk to me...then I decided to change schools and go to UNT which seemed like a cooler school at the time (which was kind of a mistake since TWU was more prestigious). I left behind a scholarship too, at TWU I had a full paid scholarship and a 3.8 GPA and I was treasurer of the Engineering group and the Dean of the Engineering program was a friend of mine and he made all that happen. But I hated my life there and once I started studying engineering at UNT I still wasn't that happy. I was one of the only girls in my classes and I didn't feel like I could make friend, well I had never really had a friend yet ever...but I was working on it lol
So I transferred to the business department. I had to teach myself how to socialize...I started writing in my journal and made a new step everyday to try and talk to someone. Drawing was easy compared to socialization for me. So I gradually came out of my bubble and business school pushed me and I began giving presentations...my professor still contacts me on FB to talk to his classes. As I learned to socialize, that is about the same time I had to quit drawing and being on DA I was behind on school once I switched majors... so I was taking around 13 to 15 hours of class and working 20-30 hours a week to help pay for everything since I no longer had a scholarship. But on the bright side...my OCD almost completely vanished when I started working my heart out. And I started to become very happy I met a boy at my job and started dating him when I was 22, his friends became my best friends. But as the relationship went on he grew more and more unhappy with his life. He would get mad at me for little things like putting several sugars in my coffee at Starbucks because he didn't want to wait on me. Then I graduated in 2010 at the age of 24
I didn't make too good grades like I did before, I didn't study too much but I was so sick of school I was just ready to be out. My boyfriend at the time made me cry the day I graduated, he told me I embarrass him...He kept saying that on that day. A few weeks before I graduated, I created a business plan and presented it to my dad. My dad is a very successful business man and he owns a lot of commercial properties. He said yes. So 2 days after I graduated, I started getting hard at work repairing and working on the studio. I had been living with my boyfriend for a year, he was very bad with finances and was in a lot of debt because he stole some stuff from the place we worked, went to jail, I bailed him out and then he was in a lot of debt from paying for a lawyer and school debt. My boyfriend ended up borrowing a lot of money from me...and it wasn't until later that I found out he spent a lot of it on gambling and alcohol. I ended up getting most of it back a year later though. My dad ended up spending about $15k to $20 to fix the building...and the city approved me and I opened up shop! Right at this time, I started talking to my family and friends about how my boyfriend was treating me, he would start going through rage fits every night and made me cry everyday. I never once yelled at him, I just kept saying I am sorry but I didn't know what I was doing wrong. He was starting to say stuff like "you are unattractive to me"...my family started to tell me I might be in an abusive relationship and I couldn't see it at the time but...I see it now. He made me move most of my belongings to our closet where I spent a lot of my time. And he threw out most of my furniture. If I could go back in time, I would have said shove it. The first month I was officially open for business I made $7.5k and it was all from social media...the next few months I didn't spend anytime marketing, I was working hard doing a lot of customer service and working with clients. By the 3rd or 4th month open my dad was getting people asking to rent the property since I fixed it up it was beginning to appeal to other businesses. My dad made me show the place to others and I told my dad that he said I could use it but because I didn't run my business the way he wanted me too he kept threatening to take it away. I had put in about $12k of my own savings and my dad let me borrow an additional $15-20k at the start for equipment. My dad owned his business next door and kept coming over about 6 times a day telling me how badly I was running my business. A few months of his all his negative remarks and I began falling into a depression. I started taking out my stress in the gym, roughly 2 hours a day, EVERYDAY. I ended up injuring myself and malnutrition myself, a lot of my earnings were going to medical stuff. I have an inflamed rib cage which will never go away, if feels like a knife is in my side but I don't feel it too much these days. I started turning down clients about 6 months open...I didn't want to book anyone if my dad was going to rent out the studio...my depression was getting very very bad at this point. I was hoping a car would hit me when I came home everyday. I started getting more calls and just let them go to VM. I then up and left my dad and the studio after 11 months or so...I applied to some jobs and told the interviewer what I did with my business and got hired in the first 10 minutes...the employer just said WOW! You were doing so well! At this point I was like, well? I thought I was doing awful, the things my dad told me kept replaying in my mind. I didn't take the jobs I started applying for...I was too depressed to keep one. Then I met a boy...I met him 8 months after my last relationship. I had a lot of friends warn me about him (13 friends and family members -_-), but I couldn't see what they were talking about. He seemed so nice to me. So I began a new relationship with him...2 months in he started to complain about how far away I lived...30 min. and I felt pressured to get an apartment near him. I really wanted to save money and was living with my mom at the time...and I shouldn't have but I went and got an apartment next to him. He had 2 kids that he didn't pay child support for, he said it was the girls fault for getting pregnant so he refused to take part in his kids lives. He was unemployed and living with his mom...I ended up paying all his bills for about 6 months and rinse and repeat my last relationship...except this guy gave me bruises and had bad rage fits that gave me some physical pain and it made me question if this was another abusive relationship. I was with him 13 months and when I found out he was cheating on me too broke up with him. That was this past October. I closed my business for good. Although my dad is still telling me I am a failure, I got calls from Toyota wanting me to do all their corporate head shots, a large medical center wanting me to be their corporate photographer, and a bank chain wanting me to do their corporate shots in the state of Texas. Soooooo it's been 5 months since I have been away and I am back living with my mom. But I have paid off all my studio bills and I am free of all the contracts and mess that I was in. And I am happy again Oh, and 2 years ago I was on Bourbon street in New Orleans and a shooting broke out but I got to shelter fast and was not shot...I was maybe 10 feet from the gunman O_O And this past February I was on a cruise ship called the Triumph that caught fire and we lost power and we were drifting lost in the ocean for 5 days...it was on the news a lot. Lol the exciting life I live.So, what now? Well, after going through all that...life looks a lot easier. But I am wanting to restart my business as a photographer but I am wanting to do very artistic stuff. I felt like I was just "shooting" with my studio. Never inspired. But my goal was never money, it was to be a better artist. And now that I am free from all the obligations of my past I was thinking about writing a how to draw anime book part time while doing my photography to support myself...what do yall think? I still feel a lot of pressure from my dad, my sister just became an Operating room nurse, my 22 year old brother is an engineer for Samsung and my other brother is about to start medical school. So right now I am the failure of the family.
I love art and I love social media marketing and I was thinking about creating lots of How to videos too. I don't know where I will be going...but I have really missed being an artist. I am so inspired again...I feel like I have a whole new outlook on art and I haven't begun creating good work. I have felt like I have had a lot of pressure on me and now its gone...and I can't get inspired with pressure. Sorry this is so long...I have really needed to get this out. Some of you have been following me on my facebook for the past 5-6 years and anytime I was depressed I would get messages that would lift me up. I love you guys <3 so much! Yall have been a huge part of my life and I can't thank you enough for all the comments and messages I get. <3 Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, thank you.My new FB page!
www.facebook.com/CrysaTV
Personal FB:
www.facebook.com/csadeghian
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Starting to Draw again! :D
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I am back!! Okay, so I know in my last journal I said I wasn't going to create any tutorial videos on anime. But, well, something happened: I quit photography and my studio. I am not kidding. It's a long, long story but just know that it is for the better and it has to do with my dad owning the property. I want to teach all my tricks and secrets of everything from Photoshop, Photography, and Anime art and I don't want to make money off of it. I am serious! Doing anything art for a full time job, for me, takes the fun out of it.
But I want to also add that some of you who watch me on here are also on my Facebook and have been sending me messages to encourage me. You guys seriously mean so much to me! I cannot thank you enough for all your comments and messages! If I have inspired anyone, I have been way more inspired by all of you <3 I want to thank you with all my heart *holding back tears* and the best way I know how is to share what I have learned with my soon to come video tutorials. Oh! And more anime art!! Like the one I am about to submit, if you want me to show you in a video how I colored it send me a tweet! I am more active on Twitter and Facebook.
Oh and if you are my 1 millionth hit, please send me a screen caption and I will feature you in my journal.
Love you all!
Add me on Twitter! Crysa_lynn
Add me on Facebook: facebook.com/csadeghian
It's a long, long story but just know that it is for the better and it has to do with my dad owning the property. I want to teach all my tricks and secrets of everything from Photoshop, Photography, and Anime art and I don't want to make money off of it. I am serious! Doing anything art for a full time job, for me, takes the fun out of it. But I want to also add that some of you who watch me on here are also on my Facebook and have been sending me messages to encourage me. You guys seriously mean so much to me! I cannot thank you enough for all your comments and messages! If I have inspired anyone, I have been way more inspired by all of you <3 I want to thank you with all my heart *holding back tears* and the best way I know how is to share what I have learned with my soon to come video tutorials.
Oh! And more anime art!! Like the one I am about to submit, if you want me to show you in a video how I colored it send me a tweet! I am more active on Twitter and Facebook.Oh and if you are my 1 millionth hit, please send me a screen caption and I will feature you in my journal.
Love you all!
Add me on Twitter! Crysa_lynn
Add me on Facebook: facebook.com/csadeghian
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Video Tutorials
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How is it going everyone!! I miss DA so much! For my business, I will be creating a series of video tutorials for Youtube and my Blog on Photography and photoshop. A few things I will address are what to wear to shoots, editing in photoshop, working with photography clients, ect, ect. So! I am needing some ideas! What are some questions you would like to see demonstrated or answered with a video? I know this is tough, but since I am no longer selling anime art I can't answer many anime questions. Maybe someday! But anything photography or photoshop or business is a go!
Once my youtube has some content I will release the username.
I miss and love you all! And I am almost at 1 million pageviews! I can't thank everyone enough for the support and comments. Yall mean the world to me!
Maybe someday! But anything photography or photoshop or business is a go! Once my youtube has some content I will release the username.
I miss and love you all! And I am almost at 1 million pageviews! I can't thank everyone enough for the support and comments. Yall mean the world to me!
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Tweet Tweet
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So....I finally gave in and got a Twitter account for my business. Add me! twitter.com/Grapevine_Photo Sorry I have been away for so long. I am a workaholic and I didn't know it! I work about 90 hours a week. No joke! I have been working my heart out at my studio in Grapevine, TX. So much so that I have had a few complications health wise and a small collision. I am so dang lucky to have what I have though!
I am so sorry I haven't been on here much. I miss all my friends here. Thank you to everyone's support in encouragement for everything I post. It amazes me that I joined deviantart over 5 years ago! At the time of joining I was a freshman in college and extremely lost. I had never talked to a boy, I hated who I was, but I loved art. So I drew 8 hours a day and posted on here. At first I had NO favorites. And then progressively I got more watchers messages and I became more confident. So I worked even harder...then I hit the front page and my tutorials became popular. I started getting recognized in my college art classes and featured in a few magazines. I got even more inspired and encouraged. I got up and lost 75 pounds and went from 191 lbs to 115 lbs. And got hit on for the first time lol.
This was all in 3 years time...Today I am a graduate from UNT, and I have proven to my father I am ambitious enough to handle a business. So much so that he has given me a photography studio in one of the best locations in the state of Texas! I can not believe how fortunate I am and it all started with Deviantart! Thank you everyone for all the encouragement and compliments!
Friend me on facebook! www.facebook.com/csadeghian?re…
My website, Christa Lynn Photography: www.christalynnphotography.com
Hugs to everyone.
twitter.com/Grapevine_Photo Sorry I have been away for so long. I am a workaholic and I didn't know it! I work about 90 hours a week. No joke! I have been working my heart out at my studio in Grapevine, TX. So much so that I have had a few complications health wise and a small collision. I am so dang lucky to have what I have though! I am so sorry I haven't been on here much. I miss all my friends here. Thank you to everyone's support in encouragement for everything I post. It amazes me that I joined deviantart over 5 years ago! At the time of joining I was a freshman in college and extremely lost. I had never talked to a boy, I hated who I was, but I loved art. So I drew 8 hours a day and posted on here. At first I had NO favorites. And then progressively I got more watchers messages and I became more confident. So I worked even harder...then I hit the front page and my tutorials became popular. I started getting recognized in my college art classes and featured in a few magazines. I got even more inspired and encouraged. I got up and lost 75 pounds and went from 191 lbs to 115 lbs. And got hit on for the first time lol.
This was all in 3 years time...Today I am a graduate from UNT, and I have proven to my father I am ambitious enough to handle a business. So much so that he has given me a photography studio in one of the best locations in the state of Texas! I can not believe how fortunate I am and it all started with Deviantart! Thank you everyone for all the encouragement and compliments!
Friend me on facebook! www.facebook.com/csadeghian?re…
My website, Christa Lynn Photography: www.christalynnphotography.com
Hugs to everyone.
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